the tempreature is 10degrees today!Spring is coming!

Heyya!~~ sien sien of reading my books. decided to post some random pictures of my time in leeds for the past few weeks. enjoy la ya. i caption each photo. behind every photo theres a story to it. Me and Roy playing dead on the snow. when got up, our pants is wet by the cold snow. which defroze because of our hot butts!
The brarzilian girls doing their brazilian dance. this photo is nothing compared to the many other photos we took that night of the brazilian gurls. and man..i was sitting right in front of them. my table is closest to the stage . just right next to the v.i.p's table
Ben & Max's Unplug.yeap we did an unplug performance , sang world's apart by jars of clay, and "can you fix a broken heart"
hehe. yeap mr massoc and ms massoc , this how it went.we are to make a sketch on how to purpose a girl. this is so embarassing. i dunno who is more embarass, me or siawwan. LOL
the lupton girls in their gowns and dresses
Jean and me. Shes the emcee! she rawk! prayer accountability partner too everyday 6pm@parky steps
Happy Houemates and my date:Pris and me.
this deco.is man make by our own massoc members. wanna cut budget.they make their own deco for the whole ball night.not bad hor.very creative.the benefits of being a scout i admit.
in chaplaincy. making the human chair chain.
to be a nerd you gotta look like one! LOL.i stoled kenn's wig, wore it walkin around the chaplaincy,siawwan took this photo when i was still hyper with it.
the easter outreach sketch team. Dr. Kenn as The Boos, Max as the easterbunny, Chrissie as the santa clausie, Stephanie as the thanksgiving turkey cluck cluck. their sketch is great man. and so totally original.
"i got heaven inside of me, grace and love, God you have set me free..".haha my fav. church fun song. love the actions. here william and jean demonstarting to the large crowd of young aldults and uni students how to them. You see people , we are never too old to do actions in church songs! Leeds Rawks!

aishin and jean bids goodbye to all of you and hope to see you again, when ben post more leeds pictures on his blog.

God Bless you Friends! Happy Mothers Day mum. Love you always!

Only Hope

God So Loved the world that he gave his only son..

did you know that currently in singapore the latest statistic revealed that at least there will be one suicide a day in singapore. most of them are students. Well i'm not sure how true this statistic is.Fran maybe u can correct me in this if its less accurate. There's also a well known true story of a hongkong superstar who had everything in the world, fame,looks, money,etc. but still decided to take his life one day by jumping off a building. Even in fiction movies, like star wars episode three.where princess padme, died when she gave birth to luke and leah (correct me in this yuin), i remember clearly from the dialogue make by one of the robotic doctors: we couldn't find the reason why we are losing her. she has nothing wrong. seems like she has lost the will to live.

i once hear a story of a girl who is given 20K pounds for her birthday by her parents and her parents left. the girl all her life live a lonely and purposeless life. the next dsy after her birthday, she commited suicide and left a note saying: You have giving me everything to live with, but you have not given me anything to live for.

just a week ago Lixi told me about her friend in australia who took her life. for an unknown reason. or even in the infamous inti college many cases of suicides attempts.

Well you might be wonderin whats with ben with all this death stories. well tonight i just cme back from easter outreach by my local church. it was good. and the mesage which is preach. is the mesage of Hope.

Without Hope. one loses the will to go on. with out hope what is there to live for then? we are all sinners without a hope for us to live eternity cos we deserve it. But thanks to our Lord Jesus , through His sacrifice that we may have again have this hope to live eternity with him. Eternity doesnt mean that after you die u go live in heaven. though that is true, but it is not entirely true.i would call it the "half gospel". living eternity is living from the day jesus came into our hearts and forever. so yea friends, we are living the eternity life NOW as long as jesus is in our hearts.the eternity life..is one which is of abundance, full of joy, full of hope, full of love, to some it all it is full of "his fullness".

easter is the time of the year where we often take it lightly. it is not highly as remembered or celebrated as christmas. in christmas we celebrate the birth of baby Jesus in the manger. did ya know that on easter it reminds us of the sacrificial death and fullfillment of that baby jesus came to earth in the first place. His death brought us a hope. why is you say hope leh? death is death d ma. what hoope is there from death? the hope that im sharing here is the hope of an eternity , the hope of covering death and living where we rightly belong.the hope of seeing jesus face to face again. the hope of reuniting our love ones in heavenly realms again. the hope of being redeem righteous in God's sight again.

this reflects much of what im goin thro during the week and the weeks coming. exams stress, finals and last months in leeds. what im worried most is actually my studies. my assignments . my dissertations. when i look at my time table and the amount of things i have to do and with the so little time i have. honestly im very afraid. i have never been put in such a strained positioon before in my studies. and i cant possibly screw up now, not here in england! so yea. i was in a spiritual struggle. struggle with dependence,struggle with faith, struggle with trust, struggle with remembering my identity. Praise God he is still faithful despite what happened and how i'm feeling. and yes thro Christ i know i can place my hope in him. Thro Christ i can have a hope when i study so friggin hard every night. and sacrificing so much of my time just for studies.

Well, i have a lot of verses to deal with hope and a lot of biblical reding with the rhema ( meaning season word). God id faithful and great. How great is our God. Sing with me... How great is our God.lalala.

Well for this week.
1.have been a study freak!
2.went for my last meeting with my dissertation supervisor..it wasnt a good one and just makes me more nervous.
3. went to chinese cg, brought lixi along to hear Gods message
4. Spend great fellowship time with cg friends and vincent
5. how could i possibly forget.. i cooked 5 dinners this week for the girls in lupton. haha. im their chef for the whole week. Well its something i did volunatrily to demonstrate my serve to others.
6. Easter outreach on friday
7. people have been asking..wat am i goin to do for easter holidays..where will i be going?etc. haha and my answer is you know wat? : Parkinson Court, brotherton library, edawrd boyle library. man im sucha meganerd now. nvmd nvmd its my final two months and it will all be over!

Well since i started writting this entry, by talkin abt death. im gonna end it the way i have started it. haha.chech u see got format wan my entry.

wee leon shared with me a personal testimony. exactly a year ago somewherre very close to easter, he had to share a message and run a funeral for a friend. his friend is a 29th year old girl.her husband requested wee leon to run the funeral for her.it was one of the toughest message and thing which wee leon have to do. the girl just got married with her husband for a year and the time has come.wee leon shared with that during that time, he shared on the message of hope through Christ Jesus who died on the Christ. He shared with me that when he was preaching the word of God during the funeral service, as he look at the sober crowd, his heart changed to a feeling which is completely 'indescriable', a feeling of 'hope'.when he shared he knew that his friend ( the girl who just passed away) have gone to be with the Lord and is in a better place... because of the hope she had since the day she accepted Jesus into her heart. she has been living eternity since that day. Not on the day she passed this world.wee leon shared with me that the feeling of hope he felt that day , is so indescriable that he actually felt like following his friend to where she going. and cant wait for his time to come.

well this might sound like a normal funeral story to you. but heyya theres a history behind this girl. that girl just accepted Christ, just 5years before she passed away. she accepted Christ, in an easter outreach organised by my local church here in leeds. she was the only one. It is then it strucked me, that hey man, even if we organise an outreach just to svae one person, we should go all out for it man and just do it.

Well i know my readers of this blog comprimise of all different kind of friends and people in my life. i just thought sharing this message of hope to all of you. in christ we can have hope in all things. in christ we can live the eternity live here on earth and forever on.

i actually wished to shared with you my friends of another spiritual giant that has impacted my life during my time in leeds and has gone to be with the Lord. Lord Dr. Michael Chan. http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/main.jhtml?view=DETAILS&grid=&xml=/news/2006/01/26/db2603.xml

his background is too long to be written in this entry. well not too long but i dont want to cause any incovenience to my readers. so up there. is the link to Rev Lord Dr. Michael Chan.


Friends lets live a life with a hope. i have a hope.Its in Christ! whats your hope?

will i make it to the last leap?

"Does anybody hear her, does anybody see..." Casting crowns

That song has been singing in my ears the whole day today.
massoc ball is over. lotsa stories. me and max perfomed some unplugs, we sang worlds apart by jars of clay and fixin a broken heart.and ohyea... thank God me and siawwan didnt get crown kings and queen of the ball.gave it away to william and chrissie.i have never done so much for a ball night before in my life.

Today, i decided to give myself a full day rest from anything related to studying. i have been banging on the books everyday man. thank God i did a big chunk of my dissertation already.
i have exactly 2months to my finals. will i make it to the last leap? will my sore tired legs wore me out when im about to reach the finish line? haha.

time really flies. i never think of me graduating law , me in the robes of one of oldest and long established unis of ENGLAND. man. sarah just got her spm results(congrats gurl). i remember i was once in her shoes ,at that time, not sure of what would happen next. Could i make it this far? absolutely no man.Its only God. now that im close to graduating, i feel like a form five who have just receive his results not knowing what lies ahead the future. will i get a job in england? will the bar schools receive my despreate appeal in the clearing stages? Will i be doin clp in kl? Will i be working in some law firm in penang? or maybe Singapore(thanks fran for the contacts)?so many possibilities ahead. But no matter what is ahead of me, i know that again i will come to the place as i am now and reflect back those years of uncertainty and will still say " It is well with my soul"

this thursday i'm bringing a china friend, li xi to mandarin cg. im really excited on this. i dont even speak or hear chinese, but just communicate with li xi with my limited words of mandarin i know and simple slow english.its a miracle that God would even open door to break boundary of languages in bringing people to cg or church. i think the only language which i use the most is prayer lo.

Pastor kenneth chin ,before the AYA festival, he encouraged me with this words : " Do you know you can do more with our knees? a man can only go on his feet as far as he has gone on his knees". If im worried i would spend ten minutes just prayin. i would get more out of it. Recently in my dissertation i found out that parliament's supremacy is not limited now because of its membership of the euro union or the human rights,as what most academics have said, text books too, but they are mainly limited because of the recognition of the judges who apply the laws which are pass by parliament. what can stop a judge from not recognising its supremacy? its position in office? yes, he might lose his position in office , but it will not rule out the fact that a damage of a non recognition has been done. this is what i got, when i decided to be broken on my knees and let him 'take my world apart' . i was dry in writting my dissertation, i felt like i am writting abstracts of what texts and academics have produce. Thank you God for imparting a whole new view of who is the one who is holding parliament supremacy.

its 4am here. have been sleeping like this lots for the past few nights. habit d.

my update is so disorganised.

hehe. i tried to post some pictures just now, but the uploader seems not to be functioning well.
i will update more and will not do it in the wee morning. Its 4am as im writting this no btw.

4Things

This is from www.tabulas.com/~Godchaser.Ronni :-)

Four Jobs I've Had In My Life
1. Office Boy
2. LAw intern
3. Burger King Kitchen worker
4. Uni Library Admin.

Four Films I Can Watch Over And Over
1. Be Cool
2. Beauty And The Beast
3. Face Off
4. Love Actually

Four Places I Have Lived
1. Penang, Malaysia
2. Bandar Nilai, Negeri Sembilan
3. Leeds, England


Four TV Programs I Love To Watch
1. Simpsons
2. That 70's Show
3. Joey
4. Punk'd

Four Places I Would Have Visited, Had I Had The Money
1. Sdyney
2. L.A.,America
3. China
4. Philippines

Four Websites I Visit Daily
1. Soccernet.com
2. Yahoo Mail
3. Tabulas/Blogspot
4. WWE.com


Four Of My Favorite Foods
1. Hokkien Mee
2. Home cook food
3. Ben & Jerry's
4. Tomyams, anythin with tomyam

Four Places I Would Rather Be
1. Singapore
2. London
3. The islands around Sabah
4. Penang

I want my muffin!

Woh time really flies man. its like only yday im singing to the monday blues in the boring boring farcoults theory of law. btw.. farcoult is a homosexual! haha ...just a random fact.

so yea today is thursday. yday i went for the malaysian society AGM. new committees are elected. william step down form his post. and its an all emo time haha. besides that i have got my bar school application replies this week. i got telur! Telur ayam pahit acceptance from any of the bar schools. the reason why? theres no reason! lagi salty on the wound. my other classmates who got way crappy 2 and 1st year law results than me, get so many offers.

kinda dark week for me. was contemplating whether if shud blog it down. but anyway, i need ya prayers okay. besides , job applications here in england also no replies. hmm seems like im a bit too early to apply them i dunno.

Was talkin to Xie De Wei, and how true it is lo. that when a child ask bread from his father, he won't give him a stone. cos He wanna give a muffin! haha. so yea..my bread( bar school) request got rejected, now im just waiting for my muffin ( God knows what it may be). But im sure it will be nice and chocolatey.

just pray for me ok guys. im filled with lotsa envy since that monday when our bar school replies came in. oya. try not to bombard this blog with too much verses ya. i really just need ur prayers thats all.thanksie.

Sarah's results results will be out next monday. so fast time flies man, it feels like only a few months ago me ,joj, gary, cheong, jason and gang , all of us go to crepes on spm results night to celebrate.miss those times man, it was like our last ever fun crepes time.

Snow,Bath,Oxford, and StoneHenge.Tons of pictures

I just love snow.somehow i like this photo,
a color of lupton residence i have never seen before
Kerting taking our photos from the top of her balcony
Fun in the snow. Smile cos the snowflakes are smilling with ya!
Kerting kicking my ass.

Group photo on a bridge in oxford gardens
Magnificient isnt it?
We have reach Gay street in bath
Pris took this picture while in the bus
Roy kisssing jane austern, the author of pride and prejudice
Relaxing by the roman stim pool
Roman stim pool from the top
Me and my fellow lunch partner kadazan Mizzie
posing with the signboard..cos i felt my baju blend with the signboard
Gua,Eugene and me taking a ... erm the picture explains it all
My LuptonGurls, they love me, but they Bite too



random picture
My Bestest friends. Kadazain Max and william
The wind at stonehenge is crazy man
Stonehenge


Well there is much to update that i just dunno how to start.
over the weekend i was in oxford, bath and stone henge. Its the best england trip i had so far. a whole bus full of friends which im close with. max, william and chrissie gang also around.
Stone henge i never thought in my whole life i will ever get to be this close to such an ancient world wonder. oxford is just totally gorgeous though the weather was very cold windy that day. and we didnt get to into the dining which HarryPotter and gang had their meals. Bath is nice too. bath is a place in england, more like a small town, which was once highly influence by the romans with lotsa of its romanian architure remaining still. the roman bath in there is okay la. not worth the expensive price of 8pound entry. i still feel they should charge us at a much lower price. but oh well..it was fun too.

Theres so many stories so much detail to put in. i also dunno how to say hehe.

i had a very good weeekend. with my friends. took lotsa pictures. so many pictures man.everybody brought their own cameras and still not enuff.haha all us came back home leeds with our camera inbox full.

Besides that ,
today it snowed heavily in leeds! really heavy like the ones with strong wind and big big snow flakes. snowed for like 4hours plus. really long. very nice. we took lotsa pictures man mini snow mans snow ball fights.etc la haha.

hmmm... i think i will let the pictures do more of the talking. seeya