Here i go.

I'm off to sheffield-newcastle tommorow. i have make all the calls. book the tickets 7weeks ago for this holidays. meeting up with tons of friends. will be goin to sheffield. and darn darn darn anne wong Islander Penang...something wrong havent provide me her contact till now.ish looks like i will just look for evelynn at sheffield tommorow. btw its her bday!

i have lots to blog about.half of me is excited and the other half been thinking lots about pastor phillip. was very grief. i remember all the words he said to me. and the things he do.did a long personal entry on Pastor Phillip. Pastor, u will be miss a lot. i know now u are now joining a multitudes of supporters in heaven to cheer us on in our race for Christ.

i have to wakey at 6am tommorow. catching the earliest bus to sheffield. then will depart to newcastle in the evening.

im very excited. my first ever england adventure.

KONG my whooper.

Its 2am here. and im still so wide awake.

This morning i woke up so so so late and nice.well is 10am late? haha. actually its early for a holiday morning wakey time =). then i surf surf the net.actually not surf surf the net. was busy filling the application for the bar vocation in uk. BBP is my first choice!! but its the most expensive though. dunno la. see what God plans. hmm then online online and breakfast,oh today i make fresh fruit juice.orange and some mango. use priscilla's blender.

at about 12pm i went to chrissie's house. to download her season 3 of the o.c. woohoo!!! i got 9 new episodes of marrissa and summer to watch.yippeees. then ermms erms.lepak at her place for a while la. actually lookin at pictures.she,william and marzuni just ame back from amsterdam yesterday. so nice leh.amsterdam. its like venice. with lotsa ancient buildings. the art museum and their "other" art museum looks interesting.and in total, each person spend about 150pounds for 3days. is that worth it?hmm..i still think its expenisve la. cos use euros wor.

at about 2pm got a call from sara ask wanna to watch kong at 8pm.haha.double yays. cos i was beginning to feel sick of seeing books for the past few days. i need to take a good breathe. william and chrissie decided to go town to meet maxwell at his work place. and mua ben, be a good boy and spend his time at good ol parky. till like 5pm like that. then over to sara's place for dinner. the rest william, chrissie,pris, and gang all makan at nandos , so expensive leh. 6pounds plus!!! gila wei. the portion is just the same as malaysia, i have seen it before. and not worth it man.so yea. after dinner me and sara went to me the others at The LIght(shopping plaza),the deco is nice leh. very nice. christmas is strong everywhere..but this place is special..because of their lights deco. the lights changes from minute to minute..very cool.

so yea. 8pm! watch KONG. and mua comment.hmm.okok la. but i agree with the show at the end when the director guy say: what killed him(refering to kong) was beauty. haha which i interpret it as woman la! haha.woman's charm can kill the KONG,waaa guys beware beware. uh-oh. i can sense feminist pros. protesting now.

by the time the show over.its midnight already. and guess what, Max called and he has lotsa sushi.waaa so nice. we all berkumpul at williams place. lepak talk talk shit. while makan sushi. really a lot of sushi leh. like ermmss 50pounds worth of sushi like that.me, marzuni,max, pris,sara,william and chrissie...eat like siou. but i think i ate the most. i think about more than 25sushis.dunno lost count d.haha.

came back so mega late. so tired.and pris still so hyper talk talk. but the conversation was good. because..i was talkin to her about what is the living God.just wanna know what she thinks and all about it =). and oh...when we got back when were a little kay po..we went to check every apartment.if got anybody. and walaaooo..we realised, both of us are the only occupants in the three blocks of apartment.

now is 2somethin d. tommorow got work at Burger king! go burger king! cant wait to kacau abel and adam.the whackiest spaniards i have ever met. and im goin for a christmas plus birthday party.yawns.

and then it will be sunday, my last day in leeds. then im off to newcastle.

Can you feel the lurrvvVvVveee that leads to RoMAaNCe and finally the DrEAaaaaMmmmm

I juust love The Parkinson building.its my second home here. it is where edward byle library is, it is where i meet my friends, it is where i can just sit with another soul who is also studying to account me to study than wastin my time sleepin whole day on the bed, it is where i have my regular dose of prayer meetings with julee, and jean ( these two girls are incredible woman of God i look up to), it is where i meet new people and get to share with them about how wonderful Penang is and God =).

Well today i have been a nerd practically from morning till now, its goin to 3pm d. and i intent to stay here till late 9pm. actually can stay till 12midnite...but kesian i live at lupton,its kinda dangerous to go back at midnite, sure meet drukens and siou lan. haha.

Anyway..im takin a short kitkat break.(yes i have kitkats with me now.) just thought of blogging some of the many things that i wanna shared that gives glory to God.

When u think of Love.what does it bring to your mind. and when you think of romance what does it bring to your mind. romance and love are like two different emotions/action to me. Love is continual , romance can be temporary but is essential to make love continual. Love never fails but romance can fail cos of its temporary nature.

But guys and gurls im not here to say that romance is all of nothing compared to love. but what im about to write here.is to let you all understand that love is essential to everybody.

Friends, i realsied that loving others without the elements of romance or with any ulterior motives could be the ticket to truly loving yourself. I'm not writing this little piece to prove you wrong about romance. That's not my point. This entry is about discovering the magic in you, and not being afraid to let this magic shine through.

If Rebecca Wells believes that people are made up of stars, I believe that we are actually made up of dreams. So check up on your dreams and try picking your favorite like what I just did. It doesn't matter if it's as big as changing the world or as simple as getting your own Burgerking outlet in your small town. Once you are able to pinpoint that dream, let loose and share it with the people around you. Who knows, it may trigger the spark that would warm up a new batch of dreamers. Most importantly, the spark would warm you up as well, that is, into becoming the person you God wants you to be - YOU.
*statement taken from veronicca mercado entry*

Best part of it is that you're actually also loving it at the same time!So let loose. Be unashamed, unabashed, and every other synonym to that. I have a dream, im a fighting dreamer.My dream was not thought of, but is born in me. My dream is recorded even before i was born.My Gods dream is my dream. before i even start law, i knew what my dream is. and now im heading towards it. its big very BIG!. some may laugh when i tell them about it. mum and dad might think im just havin a young man's dream. but this dream is of a MAN which is already in the mind of the child when he is born.

A few days ago.i shared with julee what is my dream, i feel strongly God has instored for me in 5-10years from now. in reply Julee, told me about Lord Chan, the first and only chinese in England to be given the title Lord. He is an ambassador for the chinese minorities and he also sits in the parliament to defend christian values and scrutinize politics policies or government enactments. He is given the right to say in front of the many mnay Lords : " according to the christian beliefs,i don't agree that... ", " According to the Word of God , i would suggest.... " Woh!!! what great influence and power he has in enforcing God's word and will in the area of all dirty politics.

But not only that, Lord Chan , as julee shared with me. is sucha down to earth guy, he is so humble. truely humble = greater authority. Servanthood the key to grreaater ministry. there's so much i want to tell you about what julee shared with me. but much are too personally confined in the "my letters to God directory".

hehe.its funny.that im suppose to blog about love. it went from love, then to romance then to dreams. how are all this related? suppose it does when i think of loving my saviour. i mean it make sense right? when you love your saviour. you would want to be intimate with him ( that would be romance) then after getting intimate with him...you can't help but achiving dreams.

I'm so random in my entry today. but i hope that in some ways it does help you in a way. Love you guys. God Bless!!!..now that i have finish my bar of chunky kitkat.its back to What Akdeniz says about regulating porn in the cyberspace.

jack sparrow is back

Narnia is nice wart...who says its boring?haha.i like it. i like it when the animals can talk.
so hillariously funny when the beaver says : " If you expect to smell that im afraid im not going to do that"

after the movie. me and sara went to this cool shop at THE CUBE. they have a lie detector. and there have this mchine over there.where can play up to four persons. the light will blinkblink till it becomes static.when it becomes static ,it gives out an eletric shock to the person who is slowest to press the button. so syiok. first, sara got the first zap. then scond time for my own thrill.i sengaja be slow..and waa laaao.it hurts man.

haha.besides that nothingla. just went to grocery quickie to buy corn flour. then went to lydon hall play some pool and lepak till 1pm. the movie we watch was at 9am.haha. the earliest movie.waa..the cinema empty lo. like private screen for us only.

then when i got home. the whole block is absolute silence already. pris. went to see her bro in london today. dunno for how long. i cooked lemon chciken today.haaha.but the sauce is packet wan.mum send it to me from malaysia.

then whole day just read read ,research research for my assignment. On porn!!! haha . to what extent are laws capable of regulating internet pornography. im kinda surprise at the little extent i research so far. very little regulation leh.

hmmm now is 9pm already. the block is quiet. beh tahan so sunyi betul. my lupton friends are all around england now.doing their travelling.loneliness is dangerous. thank God sara still around to kacau at lydon hall campus.if not my sanity will go kuku d. haha. believe me, one day of staying alone without seeing or talkin to any humans...is enuff to make me kuku.haha.

i cant wait for next monday.its coming soon soon soon.now im just researching and doin as much as i can for my assignments due that in january.

Been hearing chc's auido sermons and also the malaysian chc ,kevin loos sermons. i like kevin loo the most. he sucha a nut. he really can make the word of God so local and practical.

the highlight of the day: i saw the pirates of the carribean 2 trailer!! its nice so very nice omg omg omg. i was like shout "woah", Woh, waa laauu..in the cinema when they screen it.haha. who cares , no one is in the cinema anyway.

and oh i got the student and afternoon price for the show 3pounds!.double discounts.nyeknyek. but have to wakey so early just to watch a movie. felt kinda weird in that.

k la. this is just a brief update. Love you malaysia and mum. Goodnite!

psalms 107:8-9

Let them give thanks to the Lord for His unfailing love and His wonderful deeds for men, for He satisfies the thirsty and fills the hungry with good things . psalm 107:8-9
i'm working on it!!!

i got this verse from aiwei.

how true this verse is. when i reflect everything that the Lord has done for me during my time when in leeds. i just cant stop thanking God. i realised the the times when im lowest , God use it to make see things and i feel closest to God the most. All that has happen to me from the day i arrive leeds till now, will only make me be a better vessel for Him when i get back home.

i remember so much of the many many times i feel so weak. and very often i would email my cousin or mum and dad,telling them i couldnt cope anymore.for me loneliness is a tool that depress me the most. and yea..coming to a new environment, it takes time to know friends and etc. but even when i have many many friends. the lonliness was there. i realised that loneliness i feel is not the social loneliness kind, but is more of the loneliness of not seeing God. yes i do my quiet time and all. but friends, actions without any communication with the one who loves us brings nothing but just a 'religion' act. God so wanted to be with me during my time in leeds. but i was just busyin mining on temporary highs.

it is when i have gone thro so much tough times, it is then, the inner voice within says,God longs to be with you. God doesnt want to see me go through tough times, it is never his plan for me to suffer, cos he has taken all unto the cross. i have took the power of the cross for granted. when i took the cross for granted, i realised that im living in lies and im stopping God's blessing in my live.

to be honest, God has been turning things around for me since the 14th nov. god reminded me what i am in his sight. God reminded of His purposes for me here. God reminded me that im loved by him. my walk with God has shoot up all up. god is close to me always. praying at all times happens. everyday i meet new people, experience new things, and have been ministered by the holy spirit. God is real.

i admit im not 100% strong in all of my weakness-ess. and often i ask God why i have my weakness. what shud i be weak? wwhy o lord. silence lasted long ,the longer it is, the greater my desire to hear his voice.and at last.. his revelation, his word, his voice broke forth. saying :

when u say u are weak. The Lord says, this is because you are the perfect candidate of my awesome strenght. it is when u are weak my strenght is strongest in you.

i remember the days when i was form 1 back in tapah camp..seeing ps. chong leang laying hands unto my kokos and cheacheas such as debra, mayyin, noel, gabriel,etc. i remember the time when i went out first to the altar on first day of youthcamp 1999. didnt care of what others might think of what this young boy is trying to do.

God has always been using me. in church, in school, in cfs, in colleges, in cgs and everywhere. he never stop using me. i know my herritage. i know the meaning of my name. i know what i was
prophesize. i remember every word..even though i was fourteen only then.i remember what God said to me in the crowd of 5000in a giant conference.

Friends, remembering the greatness of our God is awesome. Remember who we are and what we are enables us to head towards the destiny he has called.
Now here i am in LEEDS,and all i can say is. God is making things bigger and bigger in my life. He is really preparing me to do the great commission. im excited of God's destiny for me. its big. im so happy to be in this hands that is so skillful...He mold my life so well. and he is still molding it.

i remember an entry which eunice wrote.something to do with hearing a whole nation all worshiping God in a single voice of unison. i believe that will happen to my dear penang very soon.

my friends are in camp now.im praying. i know that God is making many young people who knows the voice of the master in this coming camp. God is always making a generation of youths in every youthcamp. a generation that will take his name in all the earth.

Why am i bloggin this? i just want to glorify God. everyday of my entries. i see God is glorified whether if the situation is good or bad.

During my time in Leeds God has given this rhema word. which i will always remember

– the greatest miracle is when someone finally accepts God into his life, when someone is willing to see the good of God and to dedicate themselves to him. And if there is any word that really describes that moment, it is indeed that word – ‘miracle’.

8days to newcastle, 10 days to london, the countdown begins

haha. i realise lastnite i make such a " o Lord help me" entry. i guess thats the feeling when u are tired and panic. hehe. i get to lotsa work lastnite. pretty fruitful. this morning i got up with the nice bright sunshine and again the rainbows greeted me.

before i start anything, i wanna say it again, God is always with me. the day started with me blurblur waking up took out my bread and butter all ready so that can make breakfast later.brush teeth,shit and do the normal mornings in the toilet.
and to my surprise when i got to the kitchen to make my breakfast, pris is already there. she prepared breakfast for me.YAYs!!! yummy bacon and eggs. she says she wanna finish her food quickly before she goes to london. haha. so yea. that free yummy breakfast make my day.

then at about 11am i went out to meet sara, a 2nd year medic student, at lyddon hall. lyddon hall is nice leh. ever since i know sara have been goin to that place between classes to play free pool there.haha. lyddon is right in the heart campus of the uni. super strategic place, and its catered too! apparently sara is the only malaysian in her hall. she loves it there anyway. talkin about lydon hall, i shud have listened to stephen ko ko ( my cousin who graduated from leeds) and pick lydon hall as my residence.

haha. i love lupton still, shall not allow any silly thoughts of trying other hall residences come to mind. im contradicting my first stmt.

anyway, went to the citycenter with sara. she had to buy groceries.and omigosh, this is her first time she says doing any grocery shopping. cos too pampered by catered food. couldnt imagine them eating potatoes and ham everyday.eyeer. me and sara went to german market cos siawwan work there for the christmas season. dont be deceive by the word "market" its a good market.lotsa german christmas stuff. me and sara went to roy's stall, he was alone there. hehe. he belanja us 3 sticks of choco-coated starwberries! yums. it cost 2.80pounds a stick! hehe how he belanja us? well ,he will say the price , 8.40pounds ( cos 2.80pounds a stick ma), i give him a ten pound note, and he gave me back the change in one note of 5pounds and 5coins of 1 pound. haha. this means. i dun pay a single pent. haha.smart ass.

eelynn called today, i told her of my plans when im in london. how long i stay her place and all. new years eve i wanna spend it somewhere nice. dunno whereyet. probably will meet up suelynn, or alan, or david, or yenchong.

i got back home from the city center at 3pm. i saw the moon and the sun. its weird seeing two planets at the same time. den gambateh till now.
now, ben shall cook his dinner. lamb!! yumsyums. its only a pound here for the raw meat.
tommorow im goin to watch narnia with sara. yippee. student rate is only 3.50pounds for the 10am shows.

i want 3months break beforei come to leeds!

Give me a break. i only had a three weeks holiday since my inti second year law exams before i came to leeds. now here i am , studying and researching for stupid assignments. ish is ish.

just complainnin as crazy i am. arrggh. i wish i had like a 3months break or something before i come to leeds. so many assignments due after holidays. engine moving as slow as a slow honda motor c70.

ish.i think i shall just oinkoink now and akey tommorow with the rainbows around me and gambateh properly. if worse come to worse go to parky. everybody there is like nerds(yes, even during the holidays). make me stress along with them.haha.

i think its my room lights too. its yellow! i got a thang on yellow lights,.they make me sleepy or like dun feel like doin anything.

Phew..what a night

I'm so tired. i can just collapse straight on the bed now and zzz. but i needda bath, needda brush teeth, change, etc.

i just came back from MASSOC ( Malaysian and singaporean Society ) End term dinner. So tiring. have been preparing with elena for the past few days for the games and the emcee-ing for tonight. the attendance is bigger than what we expected. about 100plus people!

Was fun la emcee-ing. Elena was so evil doing her best to get me to wear pink. haha not to say im against the color.its just that i dun have a nice pink shirt or anything. hehe. lucky the saxophone shape tie saved the look. we look real funky.

the party cum dinner was fun. i was yaking yaking around with everybody ... while people are ushered in. the food prepapred is is is superb yummy. i didnt get to eat many rounds cos had to do the emcee-ing stunts.

was kinda nervous at first cos its been sucha long long time i did anythin like this. somemore i can be blur a bit. but it went well.

people are sporting to play all the games, actually it was hard cos the crowd was big and everywhere.

what else to ay ar?hmm.. suelynn called. was so nice to hear from her. talkin to her about how im doing and about london plans..waa gets me exicted keke.actually its the thought that i will be meeting my dear fellow fireBrand which lift my spirit even higher.

but to be honest, im actually jealous. at couples goin holidays at places like paris,edingburg and all. makes me get into some deep thought and think nonsense. ish ben.this happens to me only when im super tired and start to think think.

holidays is near, quiet lupton hall

The Sun in the winter can really make a lot of difference. everymorning i wake up with the nice beautiful sunshine that shines my whole room. as i open my window wide everynight before i sleep. haha. but it is freezzing cold at times.
And i got a little cyrstal that tackles at my window, and every morning when the sunlight comes.waaa...it defracts the light...and little rainbows is formed all around my room.worth my 1.50pounds! What a great way to greet my mornings. little rainbows ( reminds me of the promises of God) and sunlight in my room.
the floor is slippery. cos of the over night frost.

What have i been doing lately? hmm
there's no christian union meetings anymore. everybody in church is going to the christmas retreat. my lupton friends are going to newcastle for the weekend.

the only thing im looking forward to for the weekend,is the emcee-ing. yes..im emcee-ing for the malaysian end term party. it will be big. will be a fun night.

in case u all dont know. tommorow willbe my lastday of school. till january comes.

just going to spend my whole of next week holidays just on assignments. haihzz,.. sienz la. nobody around also. today i have just helped kevin n his gf move his luggage to the car. linda, kelly and kev. all gone back to their respective hometowns for christmas holidays d. the house very quiet. pris is goin to london to meet her bro soon.

Do you hear what i hear~

Christmas in England is awesome

i just came back from a christmas concert organise by the uni choir, orchestra and band. its so so so nice! actually i didnt know they had a concert tonite.i was at parkison court after work, just to pass my time, readin some juris, and nice hot choco. =) for prayer meeting at 6pm. during prayer meeting, i hear a band playin music, its not just music..its christmas carols!. haha. after prayer meeting i went staright to the parkison court inner hall. and there they are- the leeds uni orchestra and band rehersing. so nice. i asked one of the band members what time they are performing. 730pm. woh!!! i quickyly msg aimee and siawwan about it. aimee replied my message. she and chiharo ( a jap. girl) came at sharp 730pm.they miss the opening though. the opening was awesome. the band played the intro...and there was a soloist singing at the balcony. after her band.the choir members walked into the parkinson singing with such vocals. parkison court have very good hall dynamics i can say.

so nice la.i duunno how to describe. the jazz band is superb. so nice. people were dancing in the parkinson court. music was great. and to think of it. me, aimee and chiharo were like the only asians in the whole hall. well except for one of the choir members who is a hongkie...haha in which we met up with her. cos we always recognise her for being late for european law class.

christmas is awesome.im excited of the real christmas in london. im excited of goin to eelynn's house. im excited of goin to the south of london at david wesson family house.im excited of meeting up the superman boonkheng in london. im excited of meeting up with suelynn too!!! haha. now im trying to get sheryl. mum u know how to get her? can email me her number or something?

So nice so nice. i love christmas. this is goin to be the best christmas ever.

and oh.today i got a bruise on my face. i bumb real hard on the cheek. blue black a little cos , the stupid boxes of fries fell on me.

i have a feelin im goin to get emails.

Love you Penang,malaysia! nites

not to tired to give praise of what He has done for me today

wohh...just had sushi. yums yums yums
maxwell, my good good kawan in leeds chinese church, curi some sushi for me from work. haha. so nice. i shared it with all my lupton friends.

tonite in cellgroup, Val. accepted Christ into her heart. Praise God! i was so happy. its been my hearts prayer for her long. now its time for the follow up amen.

Julee bless me with a guitar. Wooh!!! i got a guitar. haha. though its old and kinda kapok.but still good enuff for my own worship time =). So blessed by julee's guitar. its actually her bro in law guitar. she doesnt really use it, so she loan me hers until when i go back to malaysia. Wee wee. im so bless! the cheapest guiatr i can find here is about 120pounds. and i dont think im gonna spend on one..since i will be here the most is a year.

hmm...actually wanna blog longer. but im extremely tired now and tommorow i have to work.
my hair is gettin longer woohoo!!! i like it =).
Love you malaysia, Penang

Joy to the World. December is here

Hi everybody.

December is here! December is here! woohoo. holidays finally. no more seminars to hold me back from long holiday plans. no more seein mr .boring in juris class. no more doin fun stuff with the guilt that i have assignments still to hand out.

Talkin about december. it snowed a few days ago. me and Linda was walkin to bus stop, till snow flakes came down. waa... for me i was like smilling laughing silly by myself though i wokeup at the wrong side of the bed that morning. its so nice. i actually open my mouth wide so that i can let some flakes fly into my mouth. haha. linda think i siou d. haha

work at burger is great too. mamnager sophie asked me to teach two new recruits on how to handle the dining area. haha. was fun. Great favor from God! Amen.

i want to do christmas shopping. the christmas stuff they have here are making me crazy.i have booked a couple of people to be my christmas shopping partner d. haha. i sound so girly.get shopping partners.

oh..i bought a christmas present for linda , got her a christmas tree. shud see the expression of her face when she saw it man. her face is as red as the hair. haha. lately we housemates have been deco thewhole house with christmas decos. its fun. the christmas tree is still botak from deco though.

besides that on my physicall side. im sick! ish. last week pris. was makin noises with her nose. and this week shes fine , and i guess she passed the baton to me. and now im making noise with the nose already. ish running nose. but pris was nice. gave med. for free. haha. dun have to go to Boots Chemist for med.
talkin about physical, that day me, siawwan and aimee came out a theory, we arent eating as much as we use to in malaysia, but how come we are so fei in our pictures hor. it is then we realised that our body shape and size is still the same as when we were in malaysia. the only difference in our body size is the face!!!. we realised that all of our faces became more round since we came to england. ish ish ish. and more ish.

Christmas carol concert was fun. the accapellas have great voices. this ang mos can really sing. but i say the stage set up was err... no comment haha. firebrands do better. but even with such a simple performance, the crowd that the c.u. is able to draw is really big. you see the photos later. it is only taken from the second flloor of the refectory. thats where i was sititng cum standing.

the bus driver was mean to me tonite. i bought fries and he didnt allow me to bring the fries up the bus. ish. aimee and the girls all look black cloud at the bus driver. so yea, i got off the bus and finish my fries to wait for the next bus. and man, it was rainning cold. thank God for the hot fries.

i have a feelin i will be gettin lotsa sms-es and emails from home concering of takin care of my health. i wanna say this in advance....Don't worry mum !!! im fine. i can take care of myself.even if i cant . God is taking care of me.

Love you malaysia.

Things to look forward for the weekend:
1. CG!
2. Christmas shopping with megan
3. winter holidays Assignment

haha nothing much. actually most of my days look like that, but always somethin spontaneously fun pops up in the day =).

O holy night...the stars are brightly shinning

taken from level two of the refectory building..the crowd is huge

Accapella. the guy in the middle forgotten his words...

Pris and Linda with the botak christmas tree